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lukon_idein ([personal profile] lukon_idein) wrote2007-03-01 01:14 am
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Bleary-eyed Freako.

Well, I did it again. Stayed up past my bedtime writing another silly story. When will I ever learn not to start these things at 9pm?? I'm totally sleep-deprived this week as it is (much interesting happenings at school, along with stressful issues with motor vehicle registration nazis), and really really really wanted to go to bed three hours ago, but.... I couldn't resist the lure of ficland. So evil.

So without further ado (so I can get to bed asap!)...

Title: It’s a Colorful Life
Author: Lukoni
Characters: Quatre(xTrowa), Duo(+Heero)
Word Count: 1473 (or thereabouts)
Summary: Quatre sees life a little differently than everyone else. Sometimes Duo wishes he didn't!
Rating: G
Warnings: No bad language. No smex. Very pure and unobjectionable. (Well, I wouldn’t go that far....)
Notes: Set post-EW. Started out trying for angsty introspection, but it seems to have veered off toward slapstick with a big dose of sap at the end. Written for GW500 challenge #161: Pain. Written in half-coma, so please notify me about any typos or other blatant errors. Thanks for reading!




It’s a Colorful Life




Ever since he could remember, Quatre could feel the emotions of those around him. Fleeting impressions, vivid sensations. And even before he knew the words for those emotions he could see them. As colors. Everywhere he went he was accompanied by a diverse and brilliant palette. As he grew, he learned what to call his own feelings and eventually, by careful observation and inquiry, what to call the colors dancing in his head.

Today, at the age of 22, he had an entire catalog in his head. A complex web of shades, tones and patterns that he barely he even noticed anymore. Walking in through the main entrance of Preventers headquarters, one of the receptionists greeted him with a smile.

“Good afternoon, Mr. Winner. I’ll tell Mr. Barton you’re here,” she said buzzing him in.

“Thank you, Amy.” Pale orange-grey. She was worried about a loved one.

He passed through the gate into the hall of elevators and waited for a car to arrive. Worry about one’s own problems tended to be a cooler grey-blue. Like the young agent who had just stepped into the elevator with him. Negative emotions tended to be darker, in the black-grey-brown range. Except hate which could blaze lava red when violent, or blind one with a seemingly innocuous pale yellow when it resided in a cool and calculating mind. Pain sometimes veered into the reds. Traumatic injury usually manifested itself in Quatre’s mind as a throbbing crimson. The more life-threatening, the more black encroached around the edges. Headaches were a transparent charcoal, while migraines a brilliant white. Long-term pain, such as from cancer or other terminal illness, a fetid deep brown.

As he stepped out on the eighth floor he let the impression of the humans bustling about wash over him. Someone was nauseous. A swirling yellow-green. Someone had just broken up with their spouse or lover. A deep purple. It would grow paler in time. And somewhere, surprisingly, that fetid brown. But not intense. Intermittent, and interrupted by cornflower blue – relief. Not life threatening. It puzzled Quatre, for although it seemed familiar, he could not place it right away. It had been a long time since he’d been at a loss in such a way.

He walked down the hall, greeting those he recognized. He often came to pick up Trowa at the end of the day. Or rather, his chauffeur would drop him off, and he’d catch a ride home from Trowa. Green. Trowa had always been green, just like his eyes. Grass green most of the time. Calm. Even when he was happy, it just resulted in a deeper green, rather than a sunshine yellow or sweet pink which were common with most people. Quatre poked his head into his husband’s office. Empty. He let his senses search for him. Sea foam with shades of lavender. He was concentrating. On something serious. Probably in a briefing.

Calling back his questing mind, he continued on down the hallway, musing over the different colors trying to claim his attention. A bright royal blue. Someone had just received a compliment. Probably that young woman just leaving Une’s office with the flushed cheeks and broad smile. It was becoming shot through with warm yellow stripes. A promotion, unless he missed his guess.

Sometimes he was wrong. And sometimes people just manifested the emotion differently from the norm. Just as Trowa was nearly always some shade of green, Heero was nearly always an intense indigo, whether happy, sad or angry. It had taken many months of acquaintance for Quatre to learn to distinguish them. Duo was a garish melon sherbet when happy and a rather hideous mauve when sad. Jet black when angry. The oddest association he had with that color was happiness – from Dorothy Catalonia, right after running him through with her sword. Her unique color scheme fascinated him, to the point where he enjoyed spending time with her just to try to figure it all out. Trowa had offered to grant him a divorce one night at an embassy party, so that he could pursue the relationship further.

Quatre smiled at the memory, but then frowned as he felt that rotting pain again. And then it was gone. He followed the general direction he believed it had come from. Turning right down another corridor of offices, he opened his mind looking for it. Nothing. A silver-haired man passed him going the other way with great purpose. Teal flecked with white. He was looking forward to the weekend.

Glancing about, he realized he was near Duo’s office. The door was open, so he strolled in, enjoying the sight of the chaos overflowing from the braided agent’s desk. Stacks of files battled for space with his laptop, an army of toy fire-breathing lizards, several empty cans of soda, and a lamp which somehow involved a woman in a hula skirt, a mule and a basket of toast.

“Hey handsome, what’s up? Your boy leave you in the lurch?” Before Quatre could respond, a manic jingle sent Duo rummaging through his files. Quatre just made it to one teetering pile as Duo triumphantly emerged with his phone.

“Maxwell!” he chirped, spinning around in his chair, leaving he blond friend to resettle the files safely on the desk.

“What have you got for me?” Duo demanded. Quatre busied himself setting the lizards up for a concerted attack to take out the hula lady’s mule when he felt it again. Straight ahead. Malignant brown, ruthlessly repressed once more. Duo was nodding, grunting affirmatives and jotting notes quickly with his laptop. Nothing looked out of the ordinary. Maybe a touch of weariness around the eyes. Could Duo be ill and hiding it?

It was so familiar. Right on the tip of his brain. It was pain. Discomfort. But somehow not dangerous. He just couldn’t remember. The smattering of rose and ecru spots gave it away. His brows shot up and his eyes widened. Duo, just ending his call, looked at him curiously.

“Something wrong?”

“Shouldn’t I be asking you that?” Quatre asked knowingly. The amethyst eyes blinked nervously.

“What do you mean?”

“Duo....”

“What?”

“You’re in pain.”

“Nothing to worry about, Kat,” he protested, then added, grumbling, “Why I ever made friends with an empath is beyond me.”

“What’s up?” came Trowa’s voice as he sidled up to his mate and draped an arm across his shoulders. Quatre allowed himself a moment to enjoy the soothing green pool that enveloped him at his husband’s touch, then turned his attention to the problem at hand.

“Duo has a toothache,” explained.

“I...” said sufferer stammered.

And he’s scared to go to the dentist.”

“Come on! There are just places that pointy metal objects aren’t supposed to go!”

“Duo, it’s not going to stop hurting on its own. You need to see a dentist.”

“The God of Death needs no dentists!”

“He does when his fangs start falling out.”

“Shall I get Heero to punch him in the face and knock it out?”

“Funny, Tro. Ha ha. You guys are making too much of this. I’ll be fine.”

The throbbing brown flash across Quatre’s eyes told another story. He looked at Duo sternly. Duo smiled back with a glint of determination in his eyes. Quatre shrugged.

“Fine. Get Heero,” he told his husband. A frothy sea bluegreen. Trowa was amused. The lanky agent turned to carry out his orders, ignoring Duo’s look of panic.

“Tro – Tro – Let’s not overreact here...” A rainbow of colors assaulted Quatre’s mind. Too many at once to make sense of.

The arrival of the villain under discussion arrested both Trowa’s steps and Duo’s protests.

“Heero,” smiled Quatre politely, having sensed the familiar stolid presence before he actually entered the room. “We were just talking about you.” An amused smirk tugged at the corner of Trowa’s mouth as he returned to his husband’s side.

“If it’s about his tooth, I’ve got it covered.”

”What?” Duo yelped. He was flashing some sort of neon yellow tinged with spiraling kumquat. Quatre interpreted it as alarm mixed with surprise.

“You knew about it?” he inquired. Heero snorted softly.

“I haven’t been this baka’s partner for six years for nothing.”

“But...” Duo managed, before Heero made it behind the desk and took a firm hold of his bicep.

“I’ve made an appointment for you with Dr. Ozawa.”

“You WHAT?” Fuschia spots were added to the fray.

“You’ll like her. She has a lot of drugs,” said Heero as he pulled his reluctant partner out into the hallway.

“But... Hee-chan...” he spluttered, clinging desperately to the door frame.

“Don’t worry, we’ll lock up for you,” offered Trowa helpfully.

“Traitor!” accused Duo.

Heero simply nodded his thanks, as he reached around and propelled the unwilling patient out of sight.

And Quatre got to learn a new shade of Heero’s indigo. It was love.

~Fin~

[identity profile] lil-1337.livejournal.com 2007-03-01 07:28 am (UTC)(link)
That was a really interesting take on Quatre's empathy. I really like how the colors reflected not only the emotion, but the person themselves.

[identity profile] lukon-idein.livejournal.com 2007-03-01 08:11 am (UTC)(link)
Thanks! Glad you liked it!! The basic idea randomly popped into my head, and the more I thought about how it might actually work in "real" life, the more it seemed that it would be more complex than just 'happiness=x, sadness=x' since emotions themselves are so complex. It was fun trying to devise a system that made sense. (At least, I hope it made sense!)

[identity profile] lil-1337.livejournal.com 2007-03-01 03:43 pm (UTC)(link)
It made a lot of sense esp the way you wrote it with Quatre explaining for us as he interprets them himself. Emotions are complex, as are ppl and rarely is there just one feeling at a time.

[identity profile] lukon-idein.livejournal.com 2007-03-01 04:43 pm (UTC)(link)
Exactly! It must be very messy. Very glad I'm not an empath. Poor Q. *snuggles him as he tries to squirm free and run for Trowa*

[identity profile] darthanne.livejournal.com 2007-03-01 07:39 am (UTC)(link)
I enjoyed that take on Quatre's empathy, not that many people play with it and it's one thing about him which has always fascinated me.

Interesting how the pilots' auras don't always follow the norm and I liked how Quatre is still learning about his friends and the way they interacted.

[identity profile] lukon-idein.livejournal.com 2007-03-01 08:26 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you! I'm so glad you enjoyed it. I know you've done some great stuff with Quatre's empathy. I've always found it an interesting aspect of his character, too, but tricky to deal with. It can lead to uber-melodrama if you're not careful, so I've tended to stay away from it! I've read some stories where he's essentially telepathic which usually annoys me, so in this one it was interesting to try to show how he might infer very personal information about a person simply from their emotions yet not have him cross the line into actual telepathy.

*grins* I figured the gundam pilots are way beyond average in everything else, they ought to be different here too. Thanks so much for the thoughtful feedback!

[identity profile] darthanne.livejournal.com 2007-03-01 08:36 am (UTC)(link)
Empathy taken to mean telepathy is one of my pet peeves as well. Emotions are NOT thoughts, and they also need to be interpretated as it's not an exact science, something which I thought came across well in your fic.

[identity profile] lukon-idein.livejournal.com 2007-03-01 04:40 pm (UTC)(link)
Cool - good to know I'm not the only bothered by that! Maybe we could issue GW fic-writing licenses - just answer these 10 questions correctly and you'll be a full accredited GW Fic Writer: 1) What's the difference between empathy and telepathy and which one affects Quatre? 2) How many Lagrange points are there and why can't there be more (a very interesting posting I read somewhere recently), 3) insert pet peeve here....

: P

[identity profile] lil-1337.livejournal.com 2007-03-01 07:48 pm (UTC)(link)
*adds*

3. Is Trowa capable of actual speech beyond...
4. Where within the context of canon is it stated or implied at Quatre is an angel or Duo was a child prostitute

5. In your own words why doesn't Wufei fight women or weaklings? Does he with them at any point in canon?

*slinks off now*

[identity profile] lukon-idein.livejournal.com 2007-03-02 06:05 am (UTC)(link)
LOL! how about...

6. Name four instances from canon in which Heero proves the he does, indeed, understand basic human emotions. (That damned girl and her dog do not count.)

[identity profile] lil-1337.livejournal.com 2007-03-02 06:18 am (UTC)(link)
That is so a definate!

He scared me at the very beginning when he does that manical laugh.

[identity profile] stillthestars.livejournal.com 2007-03-01 03:15 pm (UTC)(link)
Very creative, and a take on the empathy I've never seen before.

I really enjoyed this!

[identity profile] lukon-idein.livejournal.com 2007-03-01 04:28 pm (UTC)(link)
Thanks very much! I've heard of people seeing certain words as colors (like names or numbers), so it seemed like a not unreasonable way for empathy to manifest - especially in a pre-literate child. The brain has to something with all those signals! (Again I find myself giving way too much thought to the workings of a fictional universe!!)

[identity profile] misanagi.livejournal.com 2007-03-01 09:16 pm (UTC)(link)
So, I'm looking a weird brown now? *whines* *whines more* *holds on to Duo for support*

This was wonderful. I love the look on empathy and Quatre's interaction with the rest of the world, especially the pilots here. Great job!

[identity profile] lukon-idein.livejournal.com 2007-03-02 06:02 am (UTC)(link)
Hmmmm.... could be. Do you have a toothache? If so, I'm very sorry! I suffer from them frequently so I can totally sympathize (or should I say empathize?) Shall I send Heero over to help you deal with the problem? :P

Very glad you liked it! Considering how much of a rabid Trowa fan I am, it surprises me how often I find myself mucking around in Quatre's head. But there's just so much there to play with! Thanks very much for the feedback!!

[identity profile] ciderbutwider.livejournal.com 2007-03-02 10:39 am (UTC)(link)
Ok, that is the loveliest fic I've read in ages! I love the way colour symbolises emotions somehow, and especially the way all the pilots have their own systems - they'd have to be different!

Why do I get the feeling Wufei would be really hard to read?

[identity profile] lukon-idein.livejournal.com 2007-03-03 04:47 am (UTC)(link)
Wow - thank you very much!!!! I'm very happy you enjoyed it!

You notice I conveniently left Wufei out... I just couldn't figure out a color scheme for him. He's totally a hard one to pin down! Though I imagine that he would have noticeably changed in Quatre's perception after the whole Mariameia incident. That seems to be a big turning point for Wufei.

[identity profile] chimera-tears.livejournal.com 2007-03-02 01:07 pm (UTC)(link)
Cute title. XD Its an interesting take on empathy and auras too. :]

[identity profile] lukon-idein.livejournal.com 2007-03-03 04:52 am (UTC)(link)
Hee hee - yeah, I kind of blatantly co-opted the title from another (rather famous) source. But I couldn't resist. Glad you enjoyed this version of the emapthy thing - it does have a certain aura-related aspect to it too - hadn't really noticed that. Now I want them all to go to a fortune teller to see how her perception matches up to Quatre's - I suspect she'd have to put on sunglasses when she looked at Duo. : )

[identity profile] kinsugi.livejournal.com 2007-03-13 02:19 pm (UTC)(link)
I wasn't sure about the colors at first but you did them so well... come on, couldn't believe I was reading a line like "He was flashing some sort of neon yellow tinged with spiraling kumquat" -- what the heck color is a kumquat? -- but I was starting to giggle and then Heero said “You’ll like her. She has a lot of drugs,” and Duo was clinging to the door, and oh HELL Heero's new shade of indigo (typo btw) and you pwned me.

[identity profile] lukon-idein.livejournal.com 2007-03-14 12:37 am (UTC)(link)
LOL! So glad you wound up enjoying the colors in the end - when I first had the idea I thought 'huh, that might work' but when I actually sat down to write it I thought 'oh hell - how am I going to do this?' So it took me a bit of pondering and staring off into space like a lunatic to figure out how to make it work. But then I started to get into it, and of course had a blast assigning all sorts of flamboyant colors to Duo, since it seemed to fit with his manic personality. (Kumquat, in my head at least, is a sort of light orange - based on the fruit of the same name.)

Thanks for sticking with it to the end!! Oh, and thanks for the typo note! And for the great feedback! I really appreciate it.