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Self Directed Rant #12
Aug. 10th, 2007 09:15 pmOkay, so Fellow Student X was talking about how his committee chair told him he needed to get a professional editor to edit his thesis before he handed it out to his committee. And I said I was free for the next two weeks and I'd do it for cheaper. He said "But you're not a professional editor." Which pissed me off. Because, yes, I suppose, technically I'm not a professional editor as I've only ever been paid for proofreading. But Jesus H. Christ I am certainly more than qualified to edit a freaking master's thesis in my own field. It's not nuclear physics or abstruse legal jargon or something. So then I thought, what the HELL am I doing here? I'm thirty-fucking-six years old and I'm wasting my life in grad school for no other reason than I'm too spineless to stand up and try to actually make something of myself on my own. And it's been that way for as long as I can remember and now I'm wondering if it's too late. And it pisses me off. And I can't use the university's free student counseling service until the semester starts which is two weeks away. And I just accepted another $8000 in student loans bringing the grand total so far to something approaching half the value of my condo. Sigh. I suck with money.
AND I got an email from my friend who is still at the site where I would have been RIGHT NOW if hadn't gotten stupid Mystery Illness. She told me all about how things have been going and it sounds GREAT. So now I'm totally down.
On the other hand, not an hour after F.S. X was dissing my creds, F.S. Y called me up to let me know he should have a draft of his done by Monday and could I edit it for him. D'oh! He must have gotten my huffy vibes of the astral net. :P
On another happy note, I'm going home to New England for a few days before the semester starts. Yippee! Get to see the momster, my grandparents and actually get to our annual cousins picnic and also will be able to sneak down to Boston to see my former partners in crime. It'll be quick but such a nice way to make up for my aborted summer field season.
On a bummer note, I've been looking for a smaller, lighter laptop to help my back out next semester and I found a bunch of XPS 1210s on the Dell refurbished site for $900 and thought 'I'm not sure - I don't know enough about these things' So now after I've had time to do a little comparison shopping, OF COURSE they have all been snapped up and the cheapest light laptop on their site is $1700. Grrrrrr. I just didn't want to rush into buying one only to find it was a lemon! But I will attempt to be patient and just keep checking the site regularly and maybe another deal will come along. *crosses fingers and promises Santa to be good*
And on a salacious note, I randomly picked up Gorgeous Carat Vol. 3 at Half Price books, not having read the first two, because it opens with Hot Hero #1 chained to a wall being menaced by Evil Guy #2 with a whip. I can't really ask for anything more from my manga than that. Well, maybe just a wee sex scene between the two... but I'll take what I can get, especially for half price!
Et voila. That's my messed up brain in a nutshell.
AND I got an email from my friend who is still at the site where I would have been RIGHT NOW if hadn't gotten stupid Mystery Illness. She told me all about how things have been going and it sounds GREAT. So now I'm totally down.
On the other hand, not an hour after F.S. X was dissing my creds, F.S. Y called me up to let me know he should have a draft of his done by Monday and could I edit it for him. D'oh! He must have gotten my huffy vibes of the astral net. :P
On another happy note, I'm going home to New England for a few days before the semester starts. Yippee! Get to see the momster, my grandparents and actually get to our annual cousins picnic and also will be able to sneak down to Boston to see my former partners in crime. It'll be quick but such a nice way to make up for my aborted summer field season.
On a bummer note, I've been looking for a smaller, lighter laptop to help my back out next semester and I found a bunch of XPS 1210s on the Dell refurbished site for $900 and thought 'I'm not sure - I don't know enough about these things' So now after I've had time to do a little comparison shopping, OF COURSE they have all been snapped up and the cheapest light laptop on their site is $1700. Grrrrrr. I just didn't want to rush into buying one only to find it was a lemon! But I will attempt to be patient and just keep checking the site regularly and maybe another deal will come along. *crosses fingers and promises Santa to be good*
And on a salacious note, I randomly picked up Gorgeous Carat Vol. 3 at Half Price books, not having read the first two, because it opens with Hot Hero #1 chained to a wall being menaced by Evil Guy #2 with a whip. I can't really ask for anything more from my manga than that. Well, maybe just a wee sex scene between the two... but I'll take what I can get, especially for half price!
Et voila. That's my messed up brain in a nutshell.